is there a limit on the number of wishes you can make?

I kno that in the past..when life felt like everything was perfect..I've neglected to pray...and to put my faith in god...

For the past few months I've felt like I was being challenged.....maybe its his way of getting my attention. In times of need....these prayers are what keeps me going....every night that I pray...I apologize for my negligence and for forgetting...

Lately I've been making a lot of wishes....for each challenge...I pray for the strength to get through it....of course..with his guidance and his help...I used this strength to become successful in everything that I've done. I know that at this time...I still continue to make new wishes and that I tend to ask for so many things at the same time. I know that I can't have everything that I want...all at the same time...but I'm gunna pray hard that my one certain wish of finally getting a job as an LPN comes true this week.

Fun Busy Weekend :)

Monday Feb 15, 2010

Sunday, Feb 14, 2010

Friday, Feb 12, 2010

I had a super busy fun weekend. I love weekends that are filled with plans. Friday night the DIVA's and Lea decided to have a GNO. Plans were to go to Cactus Club for dinner then to watch Dear John at Silver City. So we met up at Cactus Club and ended up watching the Olympics Opening Ceremony. It was pretty nice..but it wasn't that exciting..maybe its more exciting when you're there live. During dinner, our lovely youngin' suggested going clubbing. We all have been wanting to go this club called "Wild coyote"..we've only been there once and we had fun so we decided that we'd go check out if its still open...we decided to go with that one rather than boss or gossip because we had heard about a lot of road closure because of the Olympics. So we drove there..only to find out that it was closed. blah! So we ended up at this Kareoke place...until freakin 5am...then for some reason someone had a crazy idea of eating at Denny's before going home. So I ended up getting home at 6:30am and had to be at work by 10 am. But overall I had a great night...barely spent any money ;)

Saturday..I just worked then...in the evening..headed to Formosa's house in Richmond for a little celebration for passing the LPN exam.

Sunday was Valentines Day..no date :( lol..just kidding..I've never celebrated Valentines day before..even when I had a boyfriend. So that day hasnt become a "me and boyfriend" day. We decided to go to downtown to eat and walk around. We drove to my school and parked there and decided to skytrain to downtown, we don't want to have to deal with road closures and having to find parking, its such a hassle. So we got off at granville stn. and decided to just walk down the street to find any place to eat since there are a lot of restaurants, clubs and lounges. We chose the right place coz granville street was blocked off and it was super busy...sorta reminded me of a mini vancouver version of Vegas. I've never seen Vancouver like that..it was amazing. Everywhere you turn theres drunk people singing "Oh Canada". We finally came across this place called "Circa Restaurant and Lounge", it looked nice so we decided to eat there. I loved it there, I loved how it looked and I love the music and the menu. This is a possible venue if I decide to have a graduation party in May, the sucky thing is..they close at midnight. Then we walked around, took pics, checked out Robson Square, the ice rink then we watched "ignite the dream". then we walked to Canada Place to see the big Olympic torch thing lol. It was an amazing night.

Last but not least, on Monday we decided to head down to Seattle just for some shopping. We stopped by bellis fair mall in bellingham first because its the only mall that has charlotte russe..I was kind of disappointed bcoz I didnt find as much as I usually find...but that's ok less money spent. Then we ate at Olive Garden and fell in love with potato and italian sausage soup. Then we went straight to Tullalip outlet, and I only bought 2 shirts and a swimsuit at aero. I love that store. Afterwards, we decided to drive further down to Lynnwood, because Eva promised to treat me at Red Lobster..and It was worth the drive. SSSOOO YUMMY! then we drove home..and Im glad Edith told me her dating history..it made the drive home interesting and it made it seems faster lol.

ahh..I had such a great weekend...sooo happy =D

Vancouver 2010 Olympics!!

I've been kinda a grinch when it came to the whole Vancouver Olympics deal lol. There's just sooo much construction and so much traffic and road closures. Im impatient when it comes to having to deal with traffic, specially unexpected delays when I need to get somewhere. I've also been hearing so many things about our economy crashing after the Olympics, so it's understandable that I was kinda annoyed at the fact that the Olympics was going to be in my hometown.

That was my thoughts until 2 days ago. Just hearing about the things that'll be happening during the Olympics got me excited. Specially LiveCity downtown, fireworks every night, live concerts, big screens showing the different sporting events...and more. I should take advantage of the fact that it's here, it's once in a lifetime. I wish I had gotten myself a ticket to at least one sporting event even though they're expensive, but I never thought I'd get excited like this hehe. This morning I woke up at 6:30 just to be able to watch the torch relay...just to be able to see it in person and to be able to get that picture hehe. It was well worth it even though it was a quick little thing. I would've enjoyed it more if me and my mom weren't standing in the rain without an umbrella, hehe...good thing I grew up in Vancouver...very used to the rain hehe. Hopefully the weather improves this week, so that all the tourists will be able to enjoy Vancouver.

I passed my Canadian Practical Nurse Registration Exam!!

These 2 things are my biggest achievements in my lifetime. I'm so happy and excited for my future as a Licensed Practical Nurse. Waiting 4 weeks for the results of my exam was pure torture so when I finally received the good news I felt all the weight come off of my shoulders. I'm feeling a little bit annoyed though because in order for me to transfer my interim license into a full one I have to get an official transcript from my school, I wish I was notified sooner so that I could have requested it already. Now...time for more waiting...One week before I receive the transcript, then I have to fill out my initial registration to be licensed for the province of British Columbia...that is another 4 weeks to process. I feel like all I've been doing is waiting, such a long process. I guess I have to learn to be patient hehe...for now I will continue to apply for a bunch of different nursing homes and hospitals. That's the final thing that I need for my life to be complete at this moment...well its the one thing I want for now..everything else can wait hehe. Let's all cross our fingers and pray that I get hired for a job soon.

Work out mode :)

Been pretty happy lately, I've been getting asked if I've lost weight a lot these past few days. The thing that I hate though is that when I start losing weight...its usually my face first. I don't mind my arms and legs at all...but its my stomach..no matter how much weight I lose..it still stays the same lol. I finally decided to start working out in order to tone up just like old days. I tried cardio kickboxing once and I felt like I was gunna die hehe..Been going to the gym with Michelle lately and its been great..we've been acting as each others personal trainer and it makes us work harder than we want to hehe. We always start off with 15-20 minutes on the threadmill..then we focus on thighs, butt, triceps and most important...our tummy. I hope I can keep it up :)

new found interest...

First of all I had a great time with my DIVAs and the lovely Leah this weekend...bubbleworld then drinking session at Leah's place. Its fun to be able to just sit with a few friends get hammered and be able to talk about anything that we want, it's also fun to reminisce about what we were all like when we were younger. Most of all its fun to make new memories and as always a great time with the girls I love.

NOW..for my new found interest...I finally picked up my brothers guitar from my cousins house. My brother asked me, why the sudden interest in learning to play the guitar? For me, I just need something to keep me busy, at the same time I've always wanted to learn to play an instrument. So I told him...I wanna sing so I always wanna be able to play an instrument.

I used to love to sing...but as usual I never worked enough to be more than average at something...I always wanna be goood...well GREAT at anything before I can take it seriously and before I can enjoy it more...I always felt like I would be judge for not being great at something, which decreases the fun in it. But from now on, I've told myself that I'll settle and be proud of what I have....if I don't continue to do it..how would I improve....I thought to myself that if I learned to play an instrument, it would make singing more enjoyable too.

I was trying to tune a guitar today and boy did I learn that I don't have a good ear for music lol. My cousin said to me, how is that possible...you sing for goodness sakes. You know what though...i have no clue how that's possible..but I'm just hoping that my "ear for music" will improve over time :)

Today, I got as far as tuning 4 our of 6 of the guitar strings lol. Then I printed out basic guitar chords, then I discovered that my hands are so small and my fingers are too weak that I have a hard time stretching them far enough to be able to reach and put my fingers where they need to be hehe.

So day 1 of that...hopefully this first day doesnt become the last lol :)

One small step at a time :)

Took a pretty big step...but I learned that we have to let things go...we have to free ourselves..no matter how hard we want to hang on. We have to be selfish..and start doing things for ourselves.

I decided to take a risk..and do that thing that would allow me to take my first small step forward.

Last night, I had an interesting dream...it had a lot of "characters" (as mara put it).

It started with me walking towards my house...the same route home that I used to walk when I was in middle school. I was about 5 blocks away from home...when I happen to see 2 guys crossing the street..as our path was about to cross...we made eye contact and i decided to walk just a bit faster. I knew one of the 2 people that I came across...but we acted like strangers. (Kind of disappointing to think about it..but in my dream I seemed fine...I'll get there) I keep walking until I was 3 block away from home..where there's a park...at the park laying on the green grass having a picnic and enjoying a sunny day was my cousins...Eva, K Jim, K Pat, A Beauty and her 3 kids who I miss dearly..Neve, Eryn and Jory. So they call me over..and I told them that I'd be back because I had to just go home quickly and change out of my swimsuit..at that point in my dream I realized I was walking around in my swimsuit and shorts...weird. lol

So I start walking home, and I happen to walk by an alley and my 2 dogs are there and they had started to follow me home and for some reason i wanted them to stay there..so I spent a little while trying to get my dog lucky to sit and stay. While this is going on..I heard the stranger and my cousins catching up and saying hello...and I said to myself...I'm glad this stranger didn't snob out my family and I felt happy because I was fine with me being strangers with this person..but not with my family. Finally I got my dog lucky to sit and stay..I look up and at the same time that stranger was walking by the alley with the friend and we made eye contact and went our seperate ways.

Suddenly it was night time..and I was with my DIVAs..we were looking for the closest tim hortons...then we ran into Michelle (Vicente)..and she said "just go into that building and go up the stairs". So we said thanks and headed towards the building and started going up the stairs...but for some reason..the stairs were never ending...we were even joking to each other about not going for a run anymore because we were getting enough exercise just to get to tim hortons....towards the end we were even crawling up the stairs coz we were just so tired and still we werent at tim hortons.....

then...I WOKE UP

So I wake up and I happen to tell Edith about this dream. She says "hmm...never ending stairs...interesting". I never thought to analyze my dream but since she brought it up...we decided we might as well. Since Edith gets really bored at work..she volunteered to look it up.

We came up with...
*strangers - at this point me and a certain someone are now strangers to one another?
*sunny day with the people I love - its what makes me happy
*walking around in a swim suit - being free to express watever i want to express?
*crossing paths - our paths are going to cross one day and when that day comes...I'll be ok..because in my dream I didnt feel pain..therefore..Im feeling optimistic and excited for that day :)
*DIVAs and tim hortons - our comfort place..where we feel safe...

the part about the never ending stairs...Edith looked it up...and here is what she found...

*going UP a flight of stairs - indicates that you are achieving a higher level or understanding, you are making progress into your spiritual, emotional, maternal journey. (we decided to ignore maternal...doesn't apply in this case).
*going DOWN a flight of stairs - signifies that you will face many setbacks in your endeavors.

We don't know why the stairs in my dream was never ending and why we were having such a hard time...and crawling towards the end...but I'm glad that we were going UP. I'm feeling optimistic.

p.s. I finally exercised....first day of cardio kick boxing...I really enjoyed it, although I felt like I was in boot camp....and as Mara said "torture". It felt great to sweat and punch and kick. I actually had a great time. I'm pretty out of shape..so hopefully as we do it more often..we'll find it easier and actually focus on technique and form...coz it was hard enough to simply try and lift my legs up to kick coz I was so tired and out of breath lol. Wish us luck...hopefully we can keep this up :)